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HAVE YOU SEEN GOD REVIVE A DEAD OR DYING MARRIAGE? EXPLAIN.
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(USA) Hello, I would first like to say this is a great website. I read some great stories on here and I would like to share minds. I would like to tell you a little about myself and my situation. I am married but am separated at this time. I am praying to God to restore my marriage. However, I was the cause of my marriage falling apart. I was the abuser in my marriage and I abused my husband emotionally and physically. Therefore yes, women can be the abuser, however I confessed my sin to my father and forgave myself and am seeking my husband’s forgiveness through divine intervention through Christ to touch my husband heart. At this point I am at peace with myself and God.
My story, to make it short, started out like this. I married my husband from another country, I live in the USA. The long distance cause some of the problem. I love my husband and know that he loves me. I have a history of running men off with my bad attitude, impatience, demanding, getting mad when I cannot get my way, am angry, sometimes violent, controlling, and insecure.
Like I was saying the long distance didn’t make me any better or nicer to my husband. It started out great and my husband is a good person that loves his friends. I on the other hand didn’t have any friends. I live a lonely life but am cool with it because though I may be an angry person at times when things do not go my way, I like peace. Therefore, I keep to myself. I have a very good side of me too. I can be very loving, sweet, caring, very giving, unselfish, kind, helpful and I’ve always been told I have a big heart.
My husband is the same way and also has his issues. I would like to say my husband suffers with being passive aggressive. He had some childhood issues and so did I. Therefore, we both bring out each other worst in the past.
I became very envious of my husband having a lot of friends and how he spoke highly of them. I became very jealous of his 2 friends that he is close to. The one friends is a girl. I didn’t find out about her until after the wedding. That made me feel very insecure. I felt like I never had the chance to not get married because of him having a female best friend that he works with. I started to resent their friendship and became very insecure. He was best friends with a guy. I resent their friendship because whenever his friend comes to this country he spends lots of time with him and I felt like he forgot about me. But that was my own negative thinking and I was just jealous because my husband had a life and I didn’t. My life was him and his daughter and he didn’t center me around his world.
So it got very ugly. One time he checked me and told me about myself, said I was jealous that he had friends and I didn’t, how I was just lonely and miserable. He was speaking the truth and y’all know the truth hurts. So after that all gloves were off. I started showing him my bad side and I brought him up I tore him down. I let him feel my wrath. I went as far as calling him gay names, emailing his friend, calling them both gay. I called him all kind of names hoping and wishing he would die. I said some very horrible stuff, making comments about his privates, making up stuff to hurt him and tear him apart. My husband is super stubborn so we would go weeks without talking because I am also stubborn. I always had to fix things. Maybe once or twice he came back around. We would make up and I started getting mad with him ignoring his calls. I would hang up the phone on him. One time I ended up changing my number and that hurt him real bad.
Another thing is my husband do not like argue or fight at all. I, on the other end, love to argue and can be nitpicky and for no reason will find a reason.
Now it’s gotten so bad between us that he now does everything I used to do to him. He ignores my calls, hangs up the phone on me, does not call back. The tables have turned. My husband is super stubborn and he can stick to his guns, unlike me, I do not stay mad long at all, but am stubborn.
He hurt me the last time I was in his country with his female best friend. She called his phone and called him honey. I was so livid I ended up hitting him and got very physical with him. I was extremely mad about this and was mad for almost year after we made up. After it happened he never felt bad about it so I started committing adultery when I got back home. I even tried when I was up there but I just couldn’t do it. I did it twice in 2 weeks before he moved to the state with me.
Yes, I still applied for him to come here because I really love my husband and I know that I have issues. He tries to deal with me. Even though things were rocky I wanted to keep our marriage. I never forgave what happened the last time I was in his country. Before he came up here I used to throw it up in his face during a fight how I slept with somebody else, and say other bad things to him. All during this ordeal I did try to seek God because a good friend of mine told me not to give up and to start reading my Bible. It helped a whole lot and I started going to counseling. That is when my husband felt like it was okay to come down and give our marriage a shot.
Well, he got here and things fell apart in a month. I started to become very abusive toward him because all of the things we went through in the past. It made me hate him on some days so that I couldn’t understand anything that was wrong with him. I would lash out and start fighting with him, especially when I’d drink. Well, he ended up moving out and ran to some people’s house he didn’t know. A co worker helped him there. That really made me bitter. I found other things that made me believe he may have cheated on me. To this day I do not know for sure if he cheated or not.
I asked God to reveal these things to me but he was telling me that he was looking for friends because he was afraid of me –that he was looking for place to stay in case I got too out of hand with physically hitting him. So we were going at it for over a month. Then one day we talked about spousal support and working on our marriage again. At this time I was in a very very dark place. My intention to get my marriage back was bad. I was out for blood.
I was hating God. I always loved him but didn’t have a strong faith. God knows my heart and knew that I tried to seek him and I tried to get my husband there. But I couldn’t with all the sinning going on between us. I even wanted to end me and my husband’s life. It was so bad. The devil had me so gone. I met up with my husband one night, had a few drinks, and we got into it. I just snapped and cut him. I ended up in jail and I was so afraid that I immediately went to God, repented, asked him to save me and he did.
Don’t y’all know? God answered me. I am on the right path. I had to stay in jail for 9 days. My family tried everything to get me out and God wasn’t having it. He was working on me while I was in jail and the things he did to me and made me see was nothing but blessings. He showed me so many things in those 9 days. It was supposed to be a horrible experience but turned out to the best thing that could ever happen to me and I am so grateful that god stepped in and save my life. I am so happy that I am still here and it is a new year. I am so happy that my husband didn’t get hurt real bad because I saw some lady in jail that murdered her husband and she was so gone.
I felt my husband’s pain when inmates were being mean to me for no reason. I saw so many things. God taught me so many things. I was always in the Bible praying and praying. I confessed all of my sins to him. I forgave everybody that I was holding grudges with in my past. I forgave them all. I forgave my husband and prayed that he’d forgave me. I did a lot of confessing and asking for forgiveness. I even forgave myself and my past. God has renewed my heart. He cleansed my sin and still is. My heart is now so light. I am no longer angry, bitter, nor hold any maliciousness in my heart. I have no resentment towards nobody. It is filled with love, joy and peace. God is so good!!! I give all the glory to God!!!
I feel so good that I prayed for God to restore my marriage. I know he is going to restore it even through trials and tribulations I am going through! I have no worries about court or anything. I believe God is going to take care of all of that for me because he does everything for a reason and wanted my soul and he got it!!! I believe he is going to restore my marriage too because he gave me a scripture. It is 1 Peter 3:1. I know that all he wants is to get me right with him, make some changes within me for the better so my husband can see the new me and how god works and to get him in Christ.
One thing I can say is that my husband and I always talked about the Lord. We both always talked about getting saved and even getting baptised together as husband and wife. The greatest thing is my husband loves the Lord. He is not an unbeliever at all. That’s why I know God is going to bring us back together, maybe not in my time but in his time because God’s timing is perfect. I know God is going to have to fix some things in my husband too because my husband’s passive aggressiveness alone, used to drive me crazy. lol!
I am learning to be patient. That’s always been my problem, controlling my anger (which I hardly have any). I am working on loving myself, loving God always, learning his words to apply them in my life, giving to others, walking in God’s way that he planned for me. I want to be ready and allow God to make these changes thoroughly so when he does restore my marriage, my husband will give his life to Christ after he see how much God took care of me and made changes in me.
I already feel like a new person. My favorite Psalm that I meditate on is Psalm 51. I used to just say it for myself. Now I say it for me and my husband. God is sooooo good. I thank him for his glory!!! I am so happy that he brought me out of the darkness and to the light! I hope my story helps somebody and lets them know God is good and real. He can bring you out of that darkness. Being an abuser is not worth it. Do not end up in jail like me, to find God. Do it now. Get help now! Respect your husband. Treat him like the king he is and he will treat you like a queen.
I can say my husband treated me like a queen but I was too negative and was in a very dark place with lots of baggage when I got married. Now I am staying on God’s word and am faithfully working for him to restore my marriage. I know he is going to restore it in Jesus’ name. Amen!
Please feel free to ask me any questions or leave your comments. I also ask people to pray for me and not judge me. I know what I did was wrong. I confess it all to the good Lord and he forgave me. I can feel that he did. I ask for people to please pray for me and my husband. Keep us in your prayers as I will do the same. God is good and always on time!!! Oh, and God has a sense of humor too. Since I’ve been out of jail I have not heard anything from my husband yet. God’s been supplying all of my needs and oh yes, the devil is busy. He put all kinds of thoughts into my head saying things like, “your husband doesn’t want you; he’s got a new girlfriend; your husband hates you; his family hates you; he doesn’t love you anymore, on and on.” I just cry sometimes because it bothers me and not knowing the unknown of faith and what God is doing can be scary. Especially because of what the devil is saying to me, I just cry and get on my knees and pray.
Please pray for us. I would love to chat with others on here because I am in Christ, married and have a story to tell. To all the husband’s that have been abused, there is still hope. If God can fix me he can fix your wife! Nothing is impossible with God.
(ZAMBIA) I do believe that God restores marriages. I’ve seen him. He is faithful and just. Just hold on and give him all problems.
(USA) Hi, I have read several stories about restoration, healing, forgiving a spouse, unforgiving a spouse, miracles and no miracles. I am so terribly confused.
My situation is rather simple. I married my spouse in 2008. It was a second marriage for both. He came into the marriage with 4 children, I have 3. Over the last 4 years, my middle daughter (now 16) has managed to tear us apart. I can’t really explain what happened, but I can say I walked away from God.
You see, my husband is very devotional (an ordained minister) and I feel like he has a very direct link to Jesus. Before we married I accepted Christ but then 3 months into the marriage, I walked away. He felt like I abandoned him. Things got worse and worse in our house. I became someone I never thought I would be…I don’t even know that person, the person I was. After an altercation with my 16 yr old daughter, he moved out.
Shortly after a confession by my 16 yr old, and talking with my 19 yr old, I came to a stark realization. I was living in a large cloud of confusion, had acted terribly with my spouse and those actions, along with my 16 yr olds, had sabatoged my marriage. But the damage was done. I asked my husband not to file for divorce because I was still discovering things. He didn’t but admitted that he was not in love with me anymore. I returned to God, asked for forgiveness, asked for direction and guidance, and asked Him to help me be a better wife and mother.
Now, don’t get me wrong, my husband has also admitted his wrongs and takes some of the blame for what happened to our marriage. I returned to church and we both began attending counseling sessions through the church. That was almost 4 weeks ago. Yesterday, my husband said he didn’t want to be married to me any more. He said he asked God for an answer as to what to do and he finally received it. His answer was to “let her go.” Now, knowing what I know about God, marriage, divorce, faith, and all that He can do, why would He give that answer???
Neither one of us has been unfaithful. I am confused. I love my husband deeply and we have learned more about each other in the last 6 weeks than in the last 4 years. My husband admits that he has seen tremendous changes in me, my lifestyle, how I handle the kids, etc., but also admits he’s not IN LOVE with me. I don’t understand the “let her go” answer if God can restore/men ANY relationship. Everything I have read on my own, and with my husband, tells me to stay “fully engaged” in the marriage…but (believing he has a stronger relatioship with God) why would my husband get the “let her go” answer?? Can anyone help me understand this?
(UNITED SATATES) You said this is your second marriage. Is your first husband still alive? Is your first wife still alive? If so, then you are in adultery. God can heal restore the covenant marriage. Please don’t take my word but examine and study the word of God.
Matthew 19:9, “And I say unto you, whosoever shall put away his wife, except it be for fornication, and shall marry another, committeth adultery: and whoso marrieth her which is put away doth commit adultery.” Luke 16:18, “Whosoever putteth away his wife, and marrieth another, committeth adultery: and whosoever marrieth her that is put away from her husband committeth adultery.”
(UNITED KINGDOM) Hello everyone. I having been reading all the comments from everyone and I find it very comforting. I am not married but I’m in a wonderful relationship with the girl of my dreams. The only problem is I have had doubts about our future for no reason.
We both are Catholic and we do believe God put us together because of certain things that have happened in the time we have been dating. One thing I can say, I would have made some very bad decisions last year, which would have been worse for me. God saved me from this by putting my partner in my life just at the right time. The thing is we abused God’s trust and slept together many times, and I think because of this I started to have doubts. I get angry with her. I have also been suffering with depression but this has been going on before my partner came into my life. Could all of this be the devil’s work???
We both went to confession today and were given a telling of by the priest. We both have decided to start from scratch as if we have started dating again. I just ask if you can pray, give me a prayer or tell me what I can do for me to clear and remove these issues from my mind, and make us both strong in our faith to God and to each other and lead us away from temptations.
(CHICAGO,IL) Yes! There are three marriages in my family I have seen God revive. One of them being my own.
My aunt and uncle were married 5 times. Three of the times they were married was to each other and they are currently married and doing better than ever now that they are both saved.
My first cousin and her husband separated after his infidelity and he desired to be with his mistress. My cousin prayed and fasted and believed God and kept him first. After 7 months he came home for good. It’s been 3 years.
My husband of 10 years and I separated because he was having an affair. He said he was hell bent on getting a divorce. I have been praying and fasting, and claiming Gods promises over our marriage. It’s been almost a year and a half and and I began dating last month. He wants to purchase a home together. I am seeing the hand of God move. I believe him and I am receiving a new marriage. Better than ever before.
(USA) Please pray for my wife Whitney. I believe she has been bewitched, that the spirit of witchcraft is controlling her life through others influence. Whitney’s ex boyfriend has been praying to have her back. I know he’s sincere because they had kids together, but praying for another man’s wife back doesn’t sound right. Plus she moved out and has been staying with her ex boyfriend’s family, with all of the influence of getting her back to her ex boyfriend.
I know she’s confused. She thinks she isn’t in love with me anymore. She thinks she’s happy and that she is still in love with her ex boyfriend. But when I said I do, I really meant it. It is really hurting me inside. Please pray to bind the spirit of witchcraft and that she’ll come back home. Thank you for your prayers. Lord bless you!
(USA) Please pray for my marriage! My husband and I have been married 18 years. Last month he moved out and into an apartment with his girlfriend (it started out as an emotional affair from what I was able to piece together, became physical probably a month ago). He claims she’s his soul mate and vice-versa.
But the thing of it is, he says he never stopped loving me, and still has feelings for me. See, he thought I didn’t love him (I do admit to having neglected him and I repented of it), and he figured that once he told me the truth, I’d dump him and he’d be free to move on. Didn’t work that way. He realized that I still love him.
So now he’s torn between our marriage, our child, and our memories –and what he thinks is his soul mate. A couple of times he admitted that he nearly came home and says a part of him wants me back. Meanwhile the other woman wants him to divorce me and tries to limit his contact with me, because she KNOWS that we could easily reconcile!
Please pray that my husband has the conviction and the courage to break off this affair, and that she be taken out of the way (and I don’t mean by violent means –I mean by God getting her out of the way). He does come by to visit when he can (at risk of “hearing it” from her). He’s conflicted and clearly following his emotions instead of asking himself what is the right, moral thing to do. I always thought he was a Christian but I have heard him doubt (wonder if it has to do with our situation).
He knows that the door is open any time he wants to come home. And he still has a key. (In fact a few nights ago he surprised me by coming in at 2 am with something from Taco Bell for me. He stayed for a while, gave our sleeping son a kiss, then left.)
I think there is hope. He tells me that if I believe there’s still hope for us, then keep wearing my wedding ring, which I’m doing. I really think he’s struggling.
(USA) Hi Alexandra:
I have some comments posted under the title “When A Child Is Born From Adultery” under Separation and Divorce of this website. My husband’s paramour is pregnant and I have dealt with so much pain as a result of it. However, I am experiencing the same thing you are with his living with his paramour, but torn between his son and me, and his paramour and his unborn son. Our prodigal husbands are greatly deceived by the enemy and we have to continue to pray in the spirit remembering Ephesians 6: 10-20 and praying that scripture with our husbands’ name in it. God’s will shall be done in your marriage and pray for the spirit of contentment and peace during this troubling time for you.
Please read my postings from the title mentioned on pages 7 and 8 under New mom and refer to http://www.rejoiceministries.org, and remember to continue to pray as a stander for your marriage and stay in His Word for peace, strength, and guidance.
May God continue to bless you and your family.
(USA) I’ve been seeing progress. She’s stopped pestering him for a divorce. He’s been calling me by a cute nickname lately like he always used to do. I flat-out asked him last week did he really want to divorce and he said no. I said “why?” He said because he loves me.
So now he needs this nudge to break it off with her and come home, and prayers are definitely appreciated! He says he wants to come home but he’s afraid of the consequences on that end.
Keep your eyes on the Lord Jesus. Your husband will be back when the Lord lets things like this happen. He wants to change you 1st and for you to build a love with your Lord, and then he will work in your husband. But keep praying for the Lord to end them from seeing each other. God does answer prayers in marriages. I have seen it happen.
(USA) I ask that everyone pray for me and my family during this rough season. My wife and I have been married for years now. We attended middle school and high school together. After going our separate ways I ran back into her while finishing up my final year in college. We were both in relationships but found that we both wanted the same things in life, or at least that is what was said. I feel deeply in love with my wife. I still love her.
But I have recently found out that she has been talking to her ex, she says was a friend for the whole 4 years of our marriage. We have a one year old son who will be two in July. She now says she didn’t want to have anymore kids. She didn’t want to be responsible for anyone else but her. She loves her kids but she doesn’t want to have to live for other people. Everything my wife has said in the past two weeks contradicts everything she has been saying the past 4 years.
I am hurt because I really thought we was best friends. We have both shared a lot of deep hurt and secrets to each other. And I feel like I had given my all to my wife. Even though I know I am not perfect and I have told her this. I wanted to go to couseling but she didn’t want anyone in her business. I am just confused because I have not been with my wife for a whole month now. I have majority custody of our son because she is doing her thing right now. She will text from time to time saying she misses me but is enjoying her freedom. She says she hopes I find someone else but then says she will be hurt if I did, maybe we will be back together because she still cares about me.
I know marriage is the real deal but her grandmother has been married over 4x, her mother over 3x, and twice to women. I just don’t think she takes it as serious as it should be. I didn’t say I do for myself at the altar. I said it for her, her daughter, and to GOD. I pray she gets herself together and comes out of the dark stronghold that is over her but I have to be happy and be able to move on if it’s not worth it. There are times I am down and there are times when I am ok, I can get through this.
I filed for divorce after her ex told me that is what he told her we were doing. I don’t want a divorce but I feel like I have no other choice. I want to leave it in God’s hands but I don’t know if God is telling me to let it go or continue to fight for my wife. I am just getting tired and am starting to resent ever meeting her.
Stop the divorce and tell The Lord JESUS how you feel. Leave it in God’s hands. He see everything, and if he wants to end it He will. But give God a chance, and see what God does. He is God, and He does answer.
(USA) Hello, I feel all your pain and and understand what it is like to feel betrayed and hurt by a spouse. Back in December I was forced to leave my marriage by the court, although my wife wouldn’t try to mend our marriage. In fact she said it was too late for us to pray together. I always felt she was involved with another person on the job, especially the way she stayed out till 5 AM. O yeah, did I mention I was a pastor?
Needless to say it is the deepest pain I have ever felt and feel. I also had to leave my sons behind and our daughter. I promised I would never do to my kids what my parents did to me. Can you imagine my agony? Over time I began to pray and seek the Lord regarding my future and our marriage. God continues to tell me that it will be restored but I cannot see it in the natural. Even now I have doubts but I am determined to trust God no matter the outcome.
On this past Friday I walked outside and stared at the horizon when the Holy Spirit imparted a beautiful vision that I would like to share with you all for your encouragement. God said, “Keith, remember when I saved you and converted you?” I said yes, Lord, you are able to do the impossible if you can exchange my nature. Then He said, “do you remember when you fell in love with Me, and how instant it was?” I knew then that God wasn”t concerned about the details of restoring my marriage like I was. All He needed was a moment to touch her heart and mind and fill it up with His love. It was a wonderful vision that flooded my entire being with joy. He later told me to write the vision. And in the meantime I was to prepare for that moment.
I learned that she does not need to see me, but God in me. And who can resist the face of God or His will? You do not need to know the plan, or how God will restore your marriage, just know THE PLAN IS GOOD. Wait on the Lord and be of good cheer, wait I say on the Lord.
(US) I met my husband in church in 10/2005 and married in 1/2007. Soon after I married I got pregnant with my son, who is now 4. My husband was an illegal immigrant when I met him and now has his permanent resident card received in May 2011. When me and my husband met he told me he prayed specifically for me and he says that he felt I was going to be his wife. I also prayed for a good Christian man.
It felt so right when we married but now that I’m looking at the bigger picture I’m confused because I feel he used me to get his papers. In the beginning everyone would tell me from church how much he liked me and that he prayed for me. He provoked an argument last yr in 9/2007 and I ended up calling the cops on him because he was insulting me and kind of pushing my buttons. It’s crazy because he totally transformed to this ugly person with me. He used to treat me like a princess. I just don’t know what got into him.
He left that day and never came back home only to pick up his belongings. He is staying with his foster now. He never once after that apologized or wanted to go to marriage counseling. He insults me every day and puts me down. All this time I feel like I have been sleeping with the enemy and feel so betrayed. I’m very hurt right now and lately have been drinking a lot to soothe the pain. I’m really asking God to restore my marriage. I hate feeling miserable like this every day.
(SOUTH AFRICA) Mu husband walked out on me after I received a bad Dr’s report. He is now married with two kids. Nothing I could do could make him come back. Was I in the wrong to let him go and was I of little faith? Did God want it to end like that? No. I am of the view that marriage is about two willing people and nobody may manipulate the will of the other person. God can, but HE WILL NOT force anyone to WILL to stay… I let him go and even with the stigma of being a divorcee, I still believe in marriage and hope one day that I will get married again.
(UK) I really don’t know if God restores. Perhaps each one is different. I have prayed and waited on God to restore my marriage for over 4 years. No movement. In fact my spouse is deeper in sin. Sorry, I think BOTH have to want to do it. I am now going to file for divorce. I see no other way. Please don’t tell me to believe to hope to faith etc. I have done this for almost 5 years. I have been to the websites, read the books, put everything into it. God’s will prevails ultimately. Some prayers are answered; some go unanswered.
(AUSTRALIA) You can’t interfere with free will. You can only look for signs.
God has always listened and acted; I was too blind to see it. When my relationship failed, I asked for 2 things, for her to be happy and to see the real me. Regardless of my wishes and thoughts, and all I wanted in the end is to remain friends as we had shared so much… 2 yrs later I had just given up. Today God moved her office from another town to the building next to mine. Coincidence and explanation goes further than this chance and force and will changes nothing.
Now I am given the opportunity to be the better man to her, not hope or persuade and not fulfill some lack of worth but to sit and marvel at it, to just be nice and kind and show all life is not so harsh and God is not so blind.
I don’t need to rekindle or fulfill some loss, I get to keep this person in my life and how that level occurs depends on how I handle it or what free will decides.
First check your reasons …then check whether you’re paying attention.
(USA) I agree with you. In marriage and all other things, God has give each and everyone a free will of choices… God can’t interfere except that He will send us prophets and wise people to help us know the truth. GOD will do that… always send us counselor, preacher and more but it is up to us to make choices in both sides. Marriage is for two people and both have to want the marriage to work; if one doesn’t it is not up the other. You can’t do anything except to move on and ask God what best he has for you.
The one who wants to continue to pray he can, but he or she has to know that God has given each and everyone a free will of choices according to: Deuteronomy 30:19 “This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your…”
(UNITED STATES) Well, I’m standing on the belief that God is going to restore my marriage. I’ve been married before but I was not living in the word. Then I have asked for forgiveness of the other and I believe that God is a forgiving God and that God will restore my marriage. So please help pray for my marriage to be restored also. The hardest part for me is I can’t do anything but cry. I can’t work. I pray for everyone that is going through this difficult time to have their marriage restored also. May God Bless us each and everyone, with our marriages.
(JAPAN) I have been married to my wife for 6 years. I married her after she got pregnant with our daughter. She was 19 and I was 22. I joined the Air Force to support them. We now have 2 small children. Throughout the entire marriage I have not been the husband that I should have been, flirting with any woman online that would give me the time of day. I even had an affair. Every time we seemed to “work” things out. But this last time she just said she didn’t think she could not get over it. I don’t blame her.
I am truly sorry for what I’ve done. I used to call myself a Christian but after I put her through all this I felt embarrassed in front of God. I love my wife more than anything, but I understand that she needs to “do her thing”.
I have been angry at God, I don’t know why I did the things I did. I truly love my wife and don’t understand why I did the things I did. She returned to the states with my children and it has felt like my heart has been ripped out of me. All I could do is cry. I still cry when I dwell on it.
I have made a commitment to myself that I will become the best man possible with the help of God. I have returned to God and put my trust in him. God will not give us challenges that we cannot overcome. It’s hard for me to believe that but I have realized that God loves me unconditionally. I want to be the man that my wife wants to be with, not needs to be with. My children deserve a father that is 100% committed to them, not one who is looking for attention from any female.
My wife says she needs space, and that is the hardest thing for me to do. I have 2 years left in my 2nd enlistment. I plan to get out of the Air Force and return to Chicago. I feel like my kids need their dad there physically instead of just providing for them financially.
I would really like if you can pray for my marriage. I know I have been far from perfect. I need my family back. There is nothing I want more in life at this moment. I pray that my family comes back soon. Please pray for God to perform a miracle and save my family. Thank You and God bless you all.
I prayed for you just now and will continue. The Lord needs her to find him too. Target acquired ;)